After an extremely tiring day, I was on my bed watching the series of random thoughts running on my mind. They just did not stop, attacking me one after the after, aching my heart and jeopardizing my mental peace. Now I wonder how fast our minds can think!
What will happen if I change my job, will my organization question my loyalty, will I be able to fit in in a new place? I knew my heart was racing faster than it should have. What should I do to lose weight, am I too ambitious and enchashing my health?
The questions did not end here. Why don’t I have too many friends to lighten up, am I too serious, am I forcing myself to be an extrovert? Oh lord, answer at least one of these questions.
Then another wave of interrogations splashed on me. Will I be able to do a job all my life, should I start something of my own, do I dream too big, am I actually worthy or am playing with my mental and physical health.
The questions kept on pouring. I think my unconscious mind needs some serious rest. I think I am actually too serious and need to chill. Adulting is really difficult especially when you want to achieve a lot.
Even if I want to loosen a bit and pull down the benchmarks, I feel guilty of being unproductive. It is such a vicious cycle. Can anyone help me answer any of these?